Miscarriage Number 2?????

Okay . . . so I think Judd and I may have just experienced another miscarriage. I noticed something "strange" today that turned out to look like a yolk sac (much like the other one but smaller). I researched a little online and there is a possibility that we could have conceived (that would explain the symptoms!). I did have some spotting before I started which I found out was "old" blood. There are a few possibilities for this "old blood" which include blood left over from the 1st miscarriage (doc. said from ultrasound a week after that there was still some to pass), it could have been blood from implantation (for a very short period of time!), or could be a sign of the dreaded . . . low progesterone!!! dun dun dun!!!! (Can't you just hear the dramatic music :) !)

So only God knows. It upsets me to think there may be something "wrong" with me. All I can do is pray, and try to be as healthy as possible. I am going to amp up my exercise routine and continue with all of the other healthy things we do. I may try some over the counter progesterone cream but there is a part of me that just wants things to work without a whole lot of extra intervention. Is that weird or silly? I don't know. If we don't get pregnant (and keep the pregnancy long enough to have a missed period!) after the next couple of months maybe I'll try the cream. I also may try tracking my Basal Body Temp. but I feel that these are more of the "next step". I really just want to enjoy life. I feel that if Judd and I start doing all of these things we are kind-of forcing it and I am not sure if I want to force anything just yet (or at all!).

Of Heavenly Father! I feel like I am being tested so much right now! I struggle with my own self-ambition! Help me to let go and trust your plan for Judd and I! Will you please prompt my heart if we need to do more?!!! I feel so lost!

In His Hands,
Katy