Wow! Wow! Wow! Wow! Wow!
Why did I doubt God????
Don't I know that God's plan is ALWAYS better than mine and that He only allows heartache in our lives that will result in our benefit?!?!
If God hadn't allowed (not caused - I truly believe that God doesn't cause the heartache in our lives - they are a result of either this world, our enemy, or our choices - but God allows them to refine us and draw us closer to Him - Job 1, 1 Corinthians 7) . . .
So, back to the Wow . . .
If God hadn't allowed Malachi to pass go to be with Him, Judd and I wouldn't have . . .
- learned how to grieve
- learned how to feel other's pain and comfort them
- sought out counseling from two INCREDIBLE people (Dr. Larry and Sue Wagner)
- made an appt. with an amazing Reproductive Endocrinologist (Thanks Lindsay P!), Dr. Gail Whitman-Elia of Advanced Fertility.
- met many wonderful people who have experienced similar pain
- learned how to accept and depend upon the amazing people around us!
If God hadn't allowed (because nothing happens apart from His Knowledge and Will) Jonah to go to be with Him, Judd and I would have never . . .
- gotten to work with Dr. Whitman-Elia so closely
- met Dr. Bowman in Steamboat Springs, CO, and left my former OBGYN
- learned that I have a genetic mutation that causes me to not have enough Folic Acid (Hello! Spina Bifida!!!) and to have blood that clots too easily (WHICH saved my life in CO but also most likely caused the loss of Malachi)
- found out that Judd has Thyroid Disease!!! Yes! We just found out that he has hypothyroidism! Which apparently explains why he is so tired all of the time . . .
SOOOO now EVERYTHING is a result of Judd's "glandular condition"! Why he's too tired to drive to GA and I need to, why he "needs" to take a nap on Sunday afternoons, etc, etc, etc.! Ha! Just kidding babe! I love you!)
So WOW!
Not only will this journey help us have a family, but will affect the quality of the rest of our lives!!! God's plan is truly . . .
SOOOOOOOOOO
much
better
than
we
can
think
or
imagine!!!! (Ephesians 3:20)
Why did I ever doubt???!!!!
How about you?
Jeremiah 29:11 "For I know the plans I have for you,"
says the LORD.
"They are plans for good
and not for disaster,
to give you a future and a hope."
Romans 8:28 "And we know that in all things
God works for the good of those who love him,
who have been called according to his purpose."
Proverbs 3:5&6 "5Trust in the LORD with all your heart;
do not depend on your own understanding.
6Seek his will in all you do,
and he will show you which path to take."
Katy....I love the new look of your blog and your positive outlook of all that has taken place in your lives! One of my dear friends experienced the EXACT same thing and found out she had the same genetic mutation. She had one successful pregnancy (which now they realize was A TOTAL MIRACLE!!!) and then lost three babies after that. She is now pregnant and about to give birth in July. She just has to give herself shots everyday and take a few extra precautions (especially as far as delivery is concerned b/c of the blood clotting issue). Let me know if you want her name/email....I know she would love to talk to you and help encourage you!!!
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