So . . . charting again may be a good thing but I just can't decide because it seems like taking everything into my own hands. When we got pregnant in March 2009 we weren't "trying" but were on a skiing vaca in Breckenridge, CO. I never expected to lose the baby and we still have no clue as to why. The docts. had some ideas but nothing very clear. The docts. did find out that I have a genetic mutation and that I need to take baby aspirin everyday to thin my blood and extra Folic Acid and Vitamin B (when I say extra, I mean like 5 times what regular preggo women take). The doct. also found out that Judd has hypo-thyroidism and he is on synthyroid for that.
We tried for 9 months with charting after the first loss and it was almost more than I could handle. The sorrow coupled with the stress, sent me into a deep depression and I began seeing a counselor and taking anti-depressants. Christmas Eve of 2009 we got pregnant again but never knew it. I had a regular period and no positive pregnancy tests until 1/2 way through my next cycle. I began to bleed heavily around day 14 and when I took a test it was positive. Our doctor, Judd and I thought I was miscarrying again so she said it was okay for us to leave the next day for our annual ski trip out west. However, while in CO, I began to have severe pain and went in to the emergency room. Turned out the baby was still there, had implanted in my left fallopian tube and had burst my tube! I was at risk of going into shock and dying at any moment. After emergency surgery, Judd and I had lost our 2nd baby and half my fertility chances. Now we continue on knowing that even if I ovulate, it may be on my left side where there is no tube for the sperm to access the egg. So, we keep trying each month believing it will take a miracle from God and feeling that He is letting us down each time.
When we charted before it felt like we were trying to control it too much. As if we weren't surrendering to the Lord's control. However, my cycles have become very erratic and it is hard for us to time everything; BUT should we even be "trying" at all?!?!
Girls, I need your help on this!!! What do you think?
In His Hands but unsure as to how much I need to do,
Katy :)
Park City Utah
4 years ago
I was referred to your fb page from a friend.. Anywho- My dh and I have been ttc now for 8 years.. 8 years infertility. I charted off and on and seriously- I've given it all to GOD.. I know what I've done- how many cycles I have had, how often I ovulate and such... Can I remember that if i go to a doctor- Hell no, but its my stuff.. :D I have a son from a previous relationship and I got pg on the pill. I am almost certain that if I got back on the "pill" i would conceive again.. But, I don't have any doctor that backs me on that.. I can tell you that I am 99.9% positive that "thats" how i got pg in the first place.. :D Good luck!
ReplyDeleteHey girl, this is just a thought...since the last statement made me think about it...my doctor put me on the pill for 3 months then said I would conceive the next month (first month I was off). She said your body has not ovulated for a while and is very eager to do so...she said she plans them this way alot when military people are coming home and only have a short window to try. Just did not know if you had tried that. I know you have lots of things going on so it may not work, but I am praying for you and hope you are loving your new place!
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ReplyDeleteOh Katy, you are so strong. To write about your struggles takes tons of courage and I admire you for speaking your heart to us. It's hard for someone to tell you what to do because in the end it's going to be up to you and your conversations with God on what to do. I will say that charting might just add more pressure, I know you've been in prayer and so has those around you that care about you, so I would continue to pray about this decision and think about what would be best for you and Judd in the end.
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Katy, I just started seriously charting my BBT last month but I have kept a period log of when I start each month, the length of my cycles, and any unusual symptoms) since I came off birth control in January 2009. I am not sure how to even read the chart; it so confusing! I need a professional to analyze it for me. So, I am not sure what to tell you. It just help me see where I stand and give me something to do. I have never though of it as me trying to take control because I don't try to plan sex according to my chart (seeing how I don't understand the chart anyway).
ReplyDeleteContinue to seek God for answers and do what feel comfortable for you and Judd.
Praying for you,
Nina
Hi Katy! I'm not sure what to tell you, but I do think that you will know in your heart what is right for you and for Judd. If charting is too much for you to handle, then I wouldn't do it, but if you feel like you can chart while still giving Him all the control, then I say, go for it! BTW, I saw where a few other commenters suggested "the pill" and I'm sure you've talked to your doctor about it, BUT, i do know that my friend courtney (who also has the same genetic mutation) was told by her doctor that going on the pill could be VERY dangerous to her health due to the condition she has.....so, you might want to look into that.....just a suggestion! Much love and prayers!!!
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Hey, friend! I miss you! Personally, I don't feel that charting your cycles is NOT giving it to God. I feel that it is being responsible and knowing your body. Fertility is so scientific this day and age, and we have so many tools that we can use. Back in the day when we were trying to get pregnant (13 years ago), I tried the temperature thing. That lasted one month ... way too much for me to handle. However, I did keep track of my cycle. I feel that God gives us these tools to allow us to have some control. I think any woman should keep track of her cycle. There is a fine, gray line between maintaining healthy control of your body and giving it to Him. Only you and Judd can define your own line. PS - Have you been using your cream??? I can order you more if you want.
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